Today we continued learning about drawing heads and faces.

The instructor put up 2 more complex busts and the same bust that I had worked on last week and I decided to try it again, so that I could “do it right” this time.

We got some new instructions and I began thinking that I was well prepared, but when I started doing the work, I discovered that I didn’t quite understand the new instructions after all.

After struggling for most of the class, she came by and quickly scribbled a few additions to my quite minimal sketch at that point. Her additions, of course, just showed that I still didn’t understand how to approach things, so I was left feeling quite discouraged and once again feeling uncertain that I’ll ever understand.

After her additions, I did my own additional scribbles to the sketch, but I wasn’t really following the rules any longer, instead just falling back on my existing habits, which she always criticizes when she sees me doing it.

I had, by then, lost my motivation to attempt to learn anything again that day. I left a few minutes before class was over.

No class next week, due to a holiday. Perhaps I’ll try to follow the rules on my own using a picture of the bust, but my confidence is waning.